Broken Record

I'm starting to feel like a broken record. I don't even feel like I'm trying any more. I feel like each decision I make about food keeps getting worse. It's like I see it or think about it. Then I think about how it would taste and then I want it super bad. I also don't hold my self back or anything of that nature. I just don't know what to tell myself anymore to make me not want it. It's just so hard to say no when it's more convenient to have than it is not to have it.

Soda

Made it through work today without going out to buy food. However, I did drink some Coke and Pepsi today. For me, it is going to be a fight for me with every meal and snack. It's so unhealthy but I can't help but choose it over water. Granted, I'm still drinking my fair share of water :)

Sleep

Well, today I indulged in a Sprite on Sat. evening and bought a meat ball and marinara sub from Sheets after midnight. Though, it's like almost 4 in the morning and I'm wide awake. I guess I really shouldn't sleep until almost 3 in the afternoon. Granted I didn't go to sleep until almost 5 am the night before. Oh well, I just wanted to drop in and become accountable for my actions :) Now I just gotta find sleep.

With that being said, I seriously dread my day shift coming up in the next few weeks. I will be working from 6 am until 4 pm. It will be a bear to get used to getting up so dang early. I really do dread it :(

Back on The Wagon

For the last couple of months, I have been drinking soda steadily and have seriously increased my fast food habits. The last two days I have enjoyed many unhealthy freedoms and tomorrow I will begin again what I started back in March. I completely understand how going back to old choices changes you back so quickly. In approximately a month and a half, I have gained back around 6 pounds and I feel every bit of it. Now, I only plan to make daily goals of making my own food and continuing to drink water. I think I'm also going to start walking 20 minutes a day, if I am lucky :)

Photo taken at my friends wedding on May 7, 2011